I rmb that when i was form 4... 1st time u talk to me, and ask bout me my name~ that time i jz realize u.. and start quietly stalk to u~ May be that time we not yet close, so i gt nth speacial feel on u, until u couple with fai... i jz realize that hmmm... gt bit jealous wor~ but also wish u two can white hair till old too. after that we was graduate... and i went to ipoh start my college life~ after that i jz know u and fai broke up... i feel wasted, but also bit happy~ so blur that kind of feel.
After that i got think to chase u, but at last i didn't take any action... because i think that u just broke up, need time to cure and i am just not perfect enough to be with u~ so i just keep in heart!
After an half year~
I meet a girl at my college, and we getting closer... cause she feel bout my 心意 and she very 主动~ so we almost be couple, but soon i jz realize she already got a bf, and still keep contact with her ex bf~ that time i really lost.... WTF!!! i meet a playgirl~
But then she told me, she will break up with all her ex and her bf... so i believe and we 拖拖拉拉 about one year++
I am suffer but i just can't dump her, because she let me feel warm and happy when with her...
Till Last year... her ex come back and asking be back togther, and she accept~ that time i really lost and thinking to suicide... but i didn't cause at that time my dad geh health also got problem... as a oldest son i hv to come back to take care my family and businese... so i choose to stop my study and leave that place ~ also broke up with her.... after that i cm back to dgn and we never meet up ever!
Then till our Dec gathering~
We meet up, and u are still the same ... and i thinking to chase u, but may be u already change... i feel dou u like ah john and alot ppl say that, and when the night we countdown, i saw it... u holding john hand tight~ that time i really jealous... so i jz control myself and don let myself got any imagine anymore~
But i 不服气~ so i keep sms u- stalk u- disturb u- jz hope can get ur attention... although i know u don like and feel me fan... but i dn care~ until one day i jz can't control anymore and 表白to u~ and u reject me... and telling me u already fall in love with someone!
Start from that day i just don dare to disturb u anymore... just because scare u will hate me and 避开我~
Last few month~
she come and contact with me... say she jz get dump up by her ex again... and she trying to suicide, i worry bout her... so i keep concern her, and she telling me that she is regret, how good if she choose me. that time i 心乱... keep thinking and thinking~ may be i can hv a new start with her... so i decide, giving both of us a chance... After that got another guy chasing her.... and keep control her life, she wanna break up with him but the guy was crazy and lock her in room.. and don let her went to Uni... and i worry bout her... ask her call the police or tell her parent, but she don wan... say don wan let the trouble become serious!!~ So i jz let it be~ but then she still can play 暧昧 with him... and going out dating with him! WTF!!! i really dunno what she thinking!! so i jz write the post!!! "Care so much, just zi gei loh lei fan!" i was just writting to her, express my feeling~ i swear not writting to u limin!!... I am very very sorry cause u suffer and emo!! I 'm Sorry!
This nov~
i went back to ipoh, i meet up with her... and wanna figure out what kind of relationship between us... and she told that, she just need a person when she need, not a bf or other.... so finally i und who are the one i really need~ And after that i get back to here, and hope can meet up with u and pass u somethings... but i dunno why u are always 避开我 and 敷衍 me in msg... i just feel weird i wanna ask... but scare is myself think too much~ and li theng wedding... no chance to talk with u~ after that i just realize u are really angry and getting serious~ So i trying to fix it and hope really can fix it!
OK that all bout me~
Limin following this is my 真心话~
i really care bout ur feel, i love to see u smile... and hope can always make u smile~ i know i am not the one u love... but i don't mind!
Although we can't be couple, but i really really really don't wanna to lose u! U are important to me, and i really mean it! So please forgive me, and i am really sorry to cause u many trouble! I'm Sorry!!! And please don no reply my msg again i really care, if u got anythings bo song just tell me or ask... i will answer u very honestly no matter what!! i won't lie u! i PRomise :(
Please forgive me.... I'M sORRY
